rain

so i remember wanting to update my journal
again yesterday,
but i can't remember what i was going to say
dang


i'm pretty mellow right now
i'm worried about later in the month
getting closer to the now


now sure at all what i want to do
not sure about a lot of things right now
i am of a few though
and those are what i'll hold onto forever






life is so weird
its complicated, at the same time its simple
you can see God's movement in it if you just try looking
you can see His love, His care, His humor, His mystery


i'm not even sure what to say now
i'm home, and i'm not lost,
there are things that i wish were very different
and i'm fighting to make those so


sometimes, the things you love and want the most
you'll have to fight for


Lord i may wonder, but i'll never stray
never again will i leave you side
but You know where i'm going better than i do
and You'll know exactly what to do


oh Lord, i'm not at a dead-end road
i'm not a drifter anymore
i don't know if i'm walking, running, or flying now
but i know whatever i'm doing,
i'm heading to where i need and want to be
i'm making my new home, something of my own
i'm heading straight into You
i'm going to where i wanna be


may nothing stand in my way, though i know it will
but whatever tries to stop me,
may it know whats coming,
may it know to be afraid
and may i know what to do to get past them
may i fly right through them


Lord its pouring outside
and its cold in this room
but its warm in my heart
and its flooding in my soul


i'm awake and breathing
i'm conscious and feeling
my heart is burning bright
my soul is filling up


lightening may crash
but i won't shudder
rain may hit my face
but i'll be smiling


i'm not afraid anymore of anything
except for You my Lord
i've got nothing that can stop me anymore
my arms are open wide
my face is smiling brightly
the tears are pouring from my eyes
and nothing can stop me anymore
nothing can stop me anymore